I feel like my heart was just ripped out. I won’t be “me” for a while now. Goodbye.
~I am~
I’m tired. I’m tired of everything. I’m tired of trying to ‘compete’ with my friends for a guy. They don’t even realize it. Every time someone comes along, they meet my friends, and what happens? I end up on the sidelines. Over and over and over.. Its exhausting. Really. Can I just get a break? And I’m tired of people. People who just dont give a damn. Its not that hard to show some interest. Why do i feel like when something goes wrong, I’m the only one who TRIES to help and fix the relationship?! I’m so tired of being the whole who gives a damn.
Why do I even try? When I tried to talk to you and get together to make things alright, you didn’t sound one bit interested to mend things. I don’t want to fight, I don’t want to grow apart but I can handle so much before you force me to leave. I DON’T want to loose you. I don’t think anyone gets it. I don’t think anyone gets how truly upset and sad I am. I am honestly…heartbroken right now.
Why can’t I just be at peace? I just want someone to hold me and tell me everything will be alright, that everything will turn around and I can be happy. All I want is some peace and happiness. Is that really that hard to ask?? oh dearr..
